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06 February 2014 @ 01:29 am

Snow day! Woke in my own time, bit past 12.30. Glad I can still manage sleeping past noon when I set my mind to it. (;

Lounged around in bed reading for around four hours (no pants are the best pants). Did a rotation with all my books, reading a section of each with an extra section of my 'active' book (The Absolutist, for book club) in-between. For those curious: Tipping the Velvet, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (read gender-bent), The Ethical Slut, My Name Is Red (previous book club book I failed to finish), Youth Ministry Advising and The Highly Sensitive Person. Getting to just sit and read felt wonderful, as it always does.

4 hours, in the grand scheme of things, is not actually that much time from a week. I wonder if I can convince myself to dedicate the time from one free leisure day a week, or at least split it into 2 hours over 2 days or even 4 hours over 4 days.

Took my sweet time in everything. I think I expected that, though; yesterday I was super productive. I cleaned all my surfaces and even the walls before I went to work, had my committee meeting and then stopped by Target and the gas station to do other things I needed. (Failed to inflate the tyres because the gorram sodding bork-brained machine ate my money and the attendant could do nothing about it but state that she "really should go put a sign on it or something". Damn right you should! Do it, rather than adding it to a useless list of Shoulds!)

Showered and my housemate cut 5-6 inches off my hair, which was long overdue. It was down past my butt and well along my thighs--I didn't even know it grew that long for me or that I might have the genes for it! Thought it'd have to stop at the bottom of my bum. It feels very short and manageable now despite still being at my tail-bone.

Mostly got up to stuff while watching Voyager. It seems that finally meeting Seven (aslkdjfhglaskdfhg finally meeting Seven) has put me into a craze of constant watching, whereas before I was watching slowly and savouring. I'm pleased either way.

Oh! The other day in meeting weekly summary examples came up, in regards to what had been sent to me and E earlier in the year and recently to A. I mentioned that one of the summaries that had been shared was one of N's from this year--one that included me. We discussed it and she made a comment about how far I had come along with my class, given what they were like at the beginning of the year when we tried to do a co-teaching activity too early. My class was incredibly difficult to manage then. Now we have our little blips but for the most part we do fine and we have our routine. It was wonderful to hear.

Plenty of thinky-thoughts on this slow day today. I won't subject you to them all. I've been messaging with a few people on OkCupid and will be meeting up with someone next Tuesday. Been thinking a lot about why I seem to be the sort of person who doesn't crave those kinds of relationships or doesn't seem bothered about them either way--how I wouldn't mind reading in bed with someone else for 4 hours or having them putter about with whatever they do, but I am more than perfectly content to do it all on my own and in my own company. Happy, in fact. Relieved to not have to worry about anyone's feelings or needs but my own. Perhaps unapologetically selfish? I don't know. The world I am a part of doesn't seem to mention the people like me very much; fanfic sometimes does, characters on their own with more permanence or as a set-up for future romance. Trying to remind myself that if I would immediately say "live however you want--however makes you happy" to someone else then I must say it to myself as well; somehow it's always different to say it's all right for another and to give self-permission. That's the gist of my thoughts, anyway. That and Janeway's hair/face/shoulders/towel/not-towel. (Hey, there are some people I would give up the solitude for hands-down, and she wouldn't get the boot for spilling coffee in bed, either.)

That's all from the Pipsqueak!

[Crossposted from dreamwidth.]
albalarkalbalark on February 6th, 2014 12:15 pm (UTC)
Hooray for snow days (when you are the teacher, anyway *g*)! Isn't it wonderful to be able to do things at leisure for a change, and to have time to loll about in bed for no other reason than it feels marvelous to do so?

I haven't watched Voyager at all, though I know I should. Miss M and I are still working our way through all seven seasons of Next Gen. It's amazing how many plots they recycled from the original series - we've been having fun spotting them.

I am not surprised that you have things more or less settled with your class now. I knew you'd work things out - no doubts.

Good luck with your dates - I know what you mean about surrendering solitude and privacy for companionship. But every once in awhile someone comes along that makes it seem like the better part of the bargain to do so. :-)

Kiwi Crocus: Seasonal || Hot chocolate.cranky__crocus on February 7th, 2014 04:22 am (UTC)
Hooray for snowdays (as a teacher) indeed! It's absolutely wonderful to do things at leisure for a day. I have free days otherwise, but of course I try to fill them with enough productivity that they're still useful. Snowdays I feel much more able to give myself permission to just sit back and relax. I'll have to get better about doing that as much as I can on Saturdays as well!

At some point I intend to watch through all the seasons of Star Trek; when I do that I'll likely re-watch Voyager and notice the same things!

Thank you! I wouldn't say it's a date, really, or not a romantic one. At the moment I'm just enjoying chatting with some new people and seeing what comes of it; as always, my preference and expectation is friendship. I'm still not really interested in more than that at the moment. Yes, indeed, every once in a while someone comes along to change my mind for longer periods of time (if not ever completely)... It's an odd relief to be out of that at the moment, if that makes any sense. But then a hefty portion of that may come from the fact that mine tend to be unrequited! Or at least in the romantic sense. Most of the time, the other person involved also wants to spend lots of time with me--but as friends, which as previously stated, makes me incredibly happy as well. :D

CaroRulescarorules on February 6th, 2014 03:08 pm (UTC)
yay for a snow day, sounds like you enjoyed it a lot!!
Kiwi Crocus: Rainbow || Paper stars jar.cranky__crocus on February 7th, 2014 04:22 am (UTC)
That I did! ♥
lash_larue: FemmeSlashlash_larue on February 6th, 2014 10:02 pm (UTC)
As far as Seven goes, resistance is not futile, it is unimaginable.

"Stick me with your tubules! I want your nanoprobes inside me."

* cough *

Uh, nevermind.

Kiwi Crocus: TWW || Constance || Little grin.cranky__crocus on February 7th, 2014 04:24 am (UTC)
Ahahaha. I'm not sure what it says about me that if it were between Janeway and Seven, I'd go with the former hands down. I suppose it says that I'm as under the spell of brains combined with authority and compassion as I've ever been. What is said about the brain again? The "biggest sexual organ"? ;D But then in that case they're both rather well-endowed! Which is likely why I don't mind seeing them together, not one bit. (;

You've put all sorts of interesting images in my mind.
Vee: Ouijavenomebat on February 7th, 2014 07:19 am (UTC)
I'm incredibly impressed that you can read that many books at one time. If I tried to do that I'd get the stories all mixed up. I need take one at a time or read vastly different books.
When I was younger I read so many YA fantasy novels that they'd all get jumbled up in my head. So now I read things like House of Leaves and Moby Dick - very easy to keep separate!
(I can also kill 600 pages a day if I have nothing else to worry about, so if it's one 300 page book about knights fighting fire-breathing dragons and another 300 page book about fair maidens talking to dragons it can get a little confusing.)

Also I will be the first to give you the "it's okay if you're not craving that kind of relationship with another person, everyone is different and if you're content with your life the way it is there's no need to change that - you're not abnormal. Our society puts a ridiculous amount of emphasis on relationships and not enough on self-love or independence."
To that effect I will also add my own personal "Stay single! Being single is awesome because you don't have to worry about someone else. Besides if you're comfortable with yourself and just do your thing eventually you'll run into someone who loves and respects that and in the long run that will be a stronger relationship anyway because they'll already understand your space and how you function without any romantic urge to find someone. They see you in a very true way."

(Message not proofread - apologies for blathering nonsense!)

Kiwi Crocus: Alex || Laughing.cranky__crocus on February 8th, 2014 10:38 pm (UTC)
They're all pretty different. (: I read a few fiction (different genre) and a few non-fiction (different subjects) at the same time because it's nice to jump around and really stretch my mind every which way when I read. I like inhabiting more than one world.

Ahahaha I don't read all that quickly, just voraciously. I can speed-read but I don't find it as enjoyable as taking my time, pausing between paragraphs to think or imagine, and re-reading sections I appreciated.

Thank you very much! I agree with those messages whole-heartedly. :D
Veevenomebat on February 9th, 2014 06:29 am (UTC)
I find myself thinking a lot about a story after I've consumed it. I think I also find a satisfaction in just being DONE with a book. That may be part of why it's so exhausting to read House of Leaves because the book is so dense and beyond my own experiences that there's no room for me to really inject myself into the story so it really takes me out of my comfort zone. It's something almost completely foreign.