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11 August 2012 @ 10:45 am
I have three unrelated things. I have had little sleep (not for lack of trying) but I will try to get this foggy-headed brain to jot them down.

(Oh gods, the dog just passed gas and it's one of the worst I've been around. Help, help, it's a terrible cloud! Alright, breathing through a blanket and typing one-handed now. This is even more completely unrelated to the Three Things.)

    1) I have found the most recent copy of my resume!

My main mem. stick ran off not too long ago and I had not updated the one in the documents section of my external hard-drive since 2009, so I had lost quite. I have a friend who is also without a job at the moment and who has never written a resume, so in telling her that I was going to help her write one I also mentioned that I had sent mine off to a friend for a lookover as well. Ding ding ding! Gmail has a search function (silly me for not thinking of it before). I found the version I sent to the temp agency, which is indeed the most recently edited. Now I'm going to add the "Kiwi's Collectibles" I've been doing on eBay to sell collectibles for a friend, since I've learned about eBay, it's put me back in touch with some more HTML, I'm learning quite a bit about the business of shipping (and the US Postal System), and certainly learning about the unique customer service of online relations. Since I'm going for a hodge-podge of jobs, it should be useful somewhere. (Perhaps some bookstore in Providence would like an employee who can sell books online and ship them. Girl can dream. I'm going to write up a letter of intent for bookstore jobs since I was told people do that even just in the hopes of future available positions. Especially with a picture so a person can be remembered. I'm thinking the headshot of me with the McGonagall hat since the main store I'm looking at seems big on interactive, intergeneration and kidling-based events, which is a skillset of mine! Most other stores seem more antiquarian-based [part of the Antiquarian Booksellers Association] and those tend to have small, loyal work-bases. I figure I'll put my name in where I can since it's a dream of mine.)

That was way more than I intended to include, haha. I usually don't post about the nitty-gritty of my jobsearch since most of it involves scrolling through various employment sites. The next time I'm in Providence, which I think is Monday night/Tuesday daytime at least, I think I'm going to pick up the paper and see if they still have a jobs section. The main newspaper doesn't make mention of it on the website; they have a "jobs" section that's all monster.com links, which is still useful. This site has a few to check.

And now for something completely different:

    2) My new household has officially gone clothing-optional.

We've been 'unofficially' clothing-option for a long while, since before the household moved from across the street, but it's the first time we've discussed it in an official sense. I love the rules that were mentioned: no sexualising/objectifying/checking people out (even sexual partners, in the common areas/when people are about); no judgment as to body types or choices (there was mention of 'we have large breasts, small breasts, and in-between'; that there are "growers" and "showers", and that we have "varied states of pubic hair"); no pressuring; and to generally be respectful.

It won't be while guests are around (unless they're frequent guests who are comfortable with it) and it's highly unlikely the household will turn into a naturist/nudist one. It's nice, anyway. Most of us prefer not to be completely stitch-free; at least most of the women tend to have preferences about top-or-bottom covered. One housemate, I know, will be happy to go without trousers; I tend to prefer topless, especially with the heat.

    3) I finished the Order of Service for my summer service tomorrow.

This may seem like blatant procrastination (alright, a little) but mostly I just had no idea what to do with it since I had one person request 10-15 minutes of the service and that's more like a short-ish ministerial sermon than what I tend to call a "sermonette". I wasn't even sure if I should be including a sermonette of my own (I have; I'll do a sparknotes version). At least it's an informal summer affair so I don't actually have to print them (some don't even have official Orders of Service). I enjoyed picking opening words, the chalice lighting, and the benediction again. In the senior youth we tended to just write those ourselves.

Talking about a clothing-optional household and then a church service--yup, that'd be my life. But the service is on sexuality. Hopefully it'll go well!

I also just got five kidsitting dates totalling about 15 hours (yay!) and two dates for transporting a teen. Plus my first real collectible auction ends tomorrow night and it has 8 people who have "watched" it, so hopefully I'll get a bid and be able to send that off on Monday. I'm going to start working on getting some of the Halloween collectibles up now, I think.

That's me, all checked in for the moment! (I did not type all of that one-handed. Eventually the terrible cloud dispersed.)
CaroRulescarorules on August 12th, 2012 12:46 am (UTC)
I don't think I could live in a clothing optional household, unless it's just me and my girl.. !

How many ppl in your household?
Kiwi Crocuscranky__crocus on August 12th, 2012 01:01 am (UTC)
Yeah, I'm a bit of an odd duck, honestly. Some say I'm from the wrong decade.

At least at first, I'd actually be way less comfortable living in a clothing-optional household with someone I was involved with! Thing is, I'm comfortable with my body when there is no sexualising (that I know of); as soon as there is any sign of anything getting sexual, I'm suddenly diving into clothes. My friends made a joke a while back that I was free with my body, but that the second things got sexual, I'd be found in the biggest parka one could possibly find.
CaroRulescarorules on August 12th, 2012 01:12 am (UTC)
haha it's normal I think. It'd just the nerves and all.

I was like that too, but when you're withthe right person and you take your time, after a while it gets easy.

I've been with my girl for 6 years which explain my comment, I never would have said that when we first met for sure!
Kiwi Crocuscranky__crocus on August 19th, 2012 08:31 am (UTC)
Oh, yes, much or most of it is definitely nerves. (: Although I think, from what I've seen, some people conduct themselves and their bodies more sexually than others--as if some of it is nature. I think my nature for myself tends to be non-sexual, but it's also been trained into me; I'm hoping that with both I can re-train myself and my nature there. :P

Mmm, I'm sure a right person and some time to wade into it will be a big help. I'm just glad that I'm good with my body in a non-sexual way, given that even if I lived my own personal fantasy life, I'd still spend more time being non-sexual than being sexual! So at least I've got the majority of time handled haha.

I've spoken with a number of my friends about it--been more honest about my self-esteem when it comes to my body in relation to others--and they've been more outspoken about complimenting me. It's flustering and I'm never quite sure what to do, but I go out of my way to thank them and I am very grateful. I can feel that it's helping, however slowly. Baby steps!
CaroRulescarorules on August 19th, 2012 11:20 pm (UTC)
Baby steps is awesome. And it is good that you feel comfy with your own body and if someday you share your life with someone special, it'll sure help.

I know of some people who are not very sexual, and usually it seems to bother people around them more than it bother themselves. As long as you are fine with it, it's all that matter.

When you say some of this behavior has been trained into you, what do you mean? Your parents taught you to be that way?
Kiwi Crocuscranky__crocus on August 19th, 2012 11:40 pm (UTC)
Hahaha I'm sure someday I'll share my life sexually with special people. I may not be so into the idea of "one true love" for myself, but I'm also not asexual or aromantic, so I'm sure at some point I'll be around people I care for in that way!

I have some strictly asexual friends, so I know how that goes; it doesn't bother me one bit but I guess it bothers some other people, the idea that there are people who just don't like or want sex. (Or that, less extreme, there are some people who are apathetic to the subject or enjoy it but don't find it to be any sort of a priority.)

Oh, no, my parents definitely didn't train it into me! They're very sexual and open, and we've always been able to talk about everything. (My mother has been encouraging me to get a girlfriend and start "having fun" since I was a late teenager, haha. She doesn't understand how I'm not as girl-crazy as she was boy-crazy! But I picked that up from my father.)

I think I mean more societally, I was trained without consciously knowing that women who conducted themselves sexually and treated their body as a sexual object "too much" (and "too much" was never defined, or defined as a very low thresh-hold) were sluts and that even though it wasn't good to be too prudish, it was prudent to be more prudish than sluts.

AKA a no-win situation! The whole "prude-or-slut" or "virgin-or-whore" situation that at least American society seems to be dealing with in a big way. So I was "trained", in my head and often without knowing, to not look at myself or my body as anything sexual--so I wouldn't end up a slut. Now, by 17 I already protested the term and idea "slut"--how it was usually just used on women who enjoyed sex, and I said "go them!"--but the harm had already been done by then, after years of hearing my peers call each other "slut" or "whore".
CaroRulescarorules on August 21st, 2012 05:47 pm (UTC)
I agree with you, that someday, when it feels right for you, I'm sure it'll happen, in the meantime, no rush.

I totally get how society sort of make a point to let girls know promiscuity is not ok. Better respect your own body and try not to worry what other people think though.