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21 February 2012 @ 11:47 pm
I lied. Procrastination > productivity. Instead I am going to inundate my poor flisties with senseless posts. Nyah! :B

After the last post, my favourite song came on (you know, when I was about to clean) and I decided, "I want to post about this, too! Separately!" So I am.

My favourite song is "Bitch" by Meredith Brooks. I mean, I don't know if it's my favourite any more (since again, I'm never much for 'favourites'), but it was my favourite for the longest so that counts for something.

I fell in love with this song when I was seven. (Yes, my favourite song was a swear-word as a seven-year-old, because my mother loved it and played it often. And she still raised a child who consistently swore less than she did. If we had a cuss-jar, she would account for almost all of it; if English expletives counted, my father might count for one quarter. I would be rich. You know, for a seven-year-old.)

When I was seven, I was diagnosed with precocious puberty with short stature - as in, I was already small for my size, and my body was going all, "Let's have or first period now instead!" So the doctors were all, "Oh no no, if you do that, you'll be a midget. Here, take these injections deep into alternating thighs once a month until we think it's an appropriate time for you to hit your puberty growth spurt and mature." I was very, "D=". At that time, I was the sort of child who tried never to cry, ever, be it physical or emotional pain; I was pretty successful. The day I went for my first shot I was called out of school early. I saw my guidance counsellor in the hall and told her I was scared (something I would tell very few people), and she made me laugh by telling me that I should pretend to blow bubbles with my mouth and then showed me how. In the end the shot wasn't so scary, though I did occasionally try to get out of them by hiding the Lupron box (only once did I leave it hidden) and I always knew they were coming because they came right after my mother would take me to the food co-op with her. I was more afraid of IVs at Children's Hospital, because they were long and I was afraid of having a needle in my arm for that long. That one I did cry over, but my best friend at the time gave me this big bulldog Beanie Baby (ahaha 90s child or what) named Winston, who is still on my bed looking worse-for-wear and well-loved.

Mainly I cried because I had all these weird Feelings (I wasn't always very nice with them), and was the only kid I knew who had to get a shot every month to not be a midget, and because I had this inborn sense that I shouldn't talk about it because a) my friends wouldn't understand and b) the topic made people uncomfortable. I hated having the secret. This song helped me get through all of what was, really, a difficult thing for a seven-year-old (and a seven-to-12-year-old) to go through.

Here we go, the actual music video:

Check out those boots!

Also, when all of this was happening in second grade, I really wanted to sing my favourite song for the class. I knew that I couldn't sing it with a swear-word, so I started singing, "I'm a witch..." That is how, at seven, I claimed my rightful place in the witching world.

It's also possible that this song is why I've never taken "bitch" to be a really bad term. (Well, that and I've always been super interested in animals, so it also meant female dog able to reproduce. Though I acknowledged that some bitches could be quite catty - hahaha I am so not funny.) To me, "bitch" was a term that acknowledged the multiple traits of my personality that showed up together or apart, strong or weak, at different times; it was the term that acknowledged my "all-rolled-into-one"ness. I got more understanding of the song as the years rolled on, but I think I got enough of it at seven to connect with it. Now I am almost-22 and I am short but not a midget, and the Lupron made me fracture my hip so now I have a hip replacement and a cane, but I'm doing okay. I'm lots of things all rolled into one.

So that is the story of my favourite song. And in present-day news, Jenne (of the I'm-in-love-with-you standing in my life) posted on my FB wall with a happy (almost) birthday message and a song I have yet to listen to from YouTube. I shall listen and see what it is.

Not my usual type, but it was played at Rowe every once in a while, and it is pretty catchy.

My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Awwr. (: Alright, I can see how being in love can make birthdays a little bit brighter. And long entries make cleaning a little bit lighter.
Nickiperoxidepirate on February 22nd, 2012 05:07 am (UTC)
Aw, "Bitch" was one of my favorite songs too! But I haven't thought about it in ages... weird.

I love your senseless posts. :)
Kiwi Crocus: Hair || Starfish braid.cranky__crocus on February 22nd, 2012 05:46 am (UTC)
I tend not to think about it until I a) hear about it; or b) get it stuck in my head and take a while to figure out what song I have stuck in my head (somehow it's often not the chorus until I figure out which song).

And thank you! I'm glad you like the senseless ones, since so many of my posts are just that. :B
albalark: Happy Birthday!albalark on February 22nd, 2012 05:38 am (UTC)
Oh, I loved that whole album! It came out at a time in my life when nearly every song on it could have been written by me (if I had been smart and talented and clever enough to come up with them, that is ::g::) I haven't listened to it in ages, so thank you for bringing it to mind again. ::rummages through CD cabinet::

Miss M and I love the Gym Class Heroes song, too. Whenever it comes on when we're in the car, we usually end up singing along with it. :-) A great song to send to one's sweetie, I'd say!

You'll be getting a proper birthday post later on (I'm off to bed now), but I'll say it here, too: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIWI!!!!!!! :-*
Kiwi Crocus: Shoes || Blue laced.cranky__crocus on February 22nd, 2012 05:52 am (UTC)
I'm trying trying to remember other songs on the album besides "Bitch" and "What Would Happen If We Kissed" (I think that's the title? I'm terrible with titles, even for songs I like). I'll have to listen to the album all the way through again! *Grins.* I hope you like the re-listen! (Someday we should get together and crazy-dance through some songs by the artists we both seem to like. That is, if you ever crazy-dance [which is my short term for "dance like no-one's watching"].)

The Stereo Hearts song made me go all gooey, since I imagined Jenne singing something on the steroe to me (what with her being a musician and all). And of course I would tote her all around if she were a boombox: gotta respect our musical heritage and historical technology. (:

Thank you, lovely Lark! The sweetest dreams to you and yours! ♥ Have a glorious day!
woldywoldy on February 22nd, 2012 01:27 pm (UTC)
I love that song too. 'Bitch' may be the only single I own, and it was playing in my head yesterday while wrangling doctors.
Kiwi Crocus: Ani D || Stare there.cranky__crocus on February 25th, 2012 12:52 am (UTC)
Ugh wrangling doctors. "Bitch" seems the perfect song to have stuck in your head for dealing with that!
CaroRulescarorules on February 22nd, 2012 03:01 pm (UTC)
I adore both those songs ;)
Miss M.: ladybirdsmiss_morland on February 23rd, 2012 05:10 pm (UTC)
Happy belated birthday, Kiwi! (So sorry to be late, but am only now catching up with my flist -- still no internet at home...)
Kiwi Crocus: Fantasy || Lesbian mermaid love.cranky__crocus on February 25th, 2012 12:53 am (UTC)
Thank you, darling! No worries on being late - I love belated birthday wishes, since they're even more of a surprise, and by then I've made it out of my odd birthday blues. (: So you've given me an extra special gift! I hope you get Internet at home soon! I miss you!