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22 January 2012 @ 04:03 am
Self-esteem problems + writing a cover lettter = gee, teeth, I'm so glad to have experienced that pulling!

But it's written up by my new deadline - 'before I sleep Saturday night' - and can now be checked tomorrow, possibly after a post-church nap. In the morning I will be volunteering with the teens.

alsdjkflaksjdf fecking fook.

Someday, I want to be a real person who actually finds value in herself, and not someone who has to spend hours pretending just to write three paragraphs.

But hooray for small accomplishments, I can zonk out now. Mayhaps positive!Kiwi shall be back tomorrow afternoon. 'til then, dreams of feeling clever and intelligent and not at all the great looby I truly feel akin to.
Nickiperoxidepirate on January 22nd, 2012 01:42 pm (UTC)
You ARE valuable, whether you can see it or not. *hugs*
Kiwi Crocus: HP || Sibyl || Hug everyone else.cranky__crocus on January 26th, 2012 04:02 am (UTC)
*Big uber snugs.* Thank you. ♥
well well wellahkna on January 22nd, 2012 04:59 pm (UTC)
Oh man, writing cover letters is THE WORST. I just can't do it.
Kiwi Crocus: Nature || Turquoise peacock feathers.cranky__crocus on January 26th, 2012 04:02 am (UTC)
Me either, apparently. I mean, I managed that draft, but...very poorly. My parents had to edit the crap out of it.

Chevy Eliot: SWars - Pin Up Stormtroopertattooedsappho on January 23rd, 2012 12:06 am (UTC)
yes, yes, hurrah for small accomplishments!

now, just hold still and let me beat some self-worth into your head and we can both go along with our days. hey, hey! GET OVER HERE! ::runs after you:: ;) ::hugs::
Kiwi Crocus: Judi || Compact & portable giant.cranky__crocus on January 26th, 2012 04:03 am (UTC)
alksdjflkajsdf your icon is fantabulistic.

Oi, ouch, not my hair! Anything but my hair! *Flees.*

(I sort of with self-worth were something a person could beat into another person...)
CaroRulescarorules on January 23rd, 2012 02:41 am (UTC)
Self esteem building is such a tough and every day struggle for most ppl, me including.
Kiwi Crocus: HP || Umbeech || Dark face.cranky__crocus on January 26th, 2012 04:04 am (UTC)
Yeah, totally. You'd almost think that with so many people going through it all the time, we'd all get better about it. But it's so slow! And I always feel as though, whenever I've taken three steps forwards, I hit another two-or-three-steps-back situation... Grr.
CaroRulescarorules on January 26th, 2012 02:40 pm (UTC)
That's how life is, as long as in the long run you are progressing, you should be proud of you!
101mutts: Ty101mutts on January 23rd, 2012 04:46 am (UTC)
Yay for defeating the cover letter. Smiles, "looby." Somebody's been reading the Beka Cooper series.
Kiwi Crocus: Kiwi || ;Dcranky__crocus on January 26th, 2012 04:05 am (UTC)
Looby has secretly always been one of my favourites, but now that I'm reading the Provost's Dog series, I feel no shame in finally using it! ('Looby', 'numpty', 'daft', and 'dolt' are some of my favourites.)