I stayed over Claire's house before it and revised with her. I spent a bit of the evening alone in her kitchen, hanging out in a chat with lash_larue and albalark; it was probably just what I needed the night before my final final exam (heehee). Slept on a little pad in front of Claire's bed.
Woke up the next morning, had toast and tried to calm my jitters with deep breaths. Took my notes and walked to HumSS, parting with Claire along the way at Palmer. I went to do some last-minute cramming to find that I had left the correct notes in the car and taken lots of blank paper. :B I just laughed at myself and waited to go in.
Took my teddy bear Queen Shelley Sunshine Attiya Latifa the Radioactive Psychedelic Careless Bear (of course), Rupert my plastic squid from ubiquitousmixie (of course) and my ukulele (of course) as well as other necessities. Took the exam.
2) Discuss to what extent human population growth can be directly blamed for the conservation crisis.
I made it sciency. I included the term 'propagule pressure', which made me happy. Mainly I was pleased that one of the topics I'd revised well did indeed come up. I also got to rant a bit about humans and bring up the possibility of us all dying, which is something I seem to do often on exams. (Indeed, after the exam Claire came up to me and told me she had "Pulled a Kiwi" by killing off all humans in a scenario in an exam essay; I laughed.)
3) Discuss the effects of habitat fragmentation on communities of plants and animals.
This one was fuzzier and rushed and not very good, but I remembered some key points and think I skimmed over everything that needed to be mentioned, even if it wasn't in enough detail or indeed very good at all.
Because at that point I was like OH WHATEVER I'M DONE WITH EXAMS FOREVER-ISH SO SOD THAT. There was much rejoicing. (Yaaaay *flag waving*.) Took out my ukulele and sat under my tree (the boot and bum prints were there from my many other post-exam playings under the tree) and plucked. Sang. It was lovely.
Claire drove me home. I may have passed out. I don't really remember. OH WAIT NO pretty sure I went to anime society, or something. But whatever I did I did it with MUCH MORE FREEDOM AND JOY.
I get my results for what sort of degree I have on the 14th. I should care more. I think somewhere deeper down I do, but I'm not reaching down to that part because not caring, for the moment, feels way better. I've been attached to grades and numbers and results and these structured metrics of success that it feels fantastic to be freed of them for a bit.
HUZZAH EXAMS, I GOT THROUGH YOU. NOT LIKE A BOSS BUT I DID. ALSO PLEASE LET ME HAVE PASSED ALL OF THEM SO I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE RE-SITS. I DON'T KNOW WHEN THIS TURNED INTO A LIVEJOURNAL PRAYER BUT UNIVERSAL STARDUST AND LADY LUCK/SEÑORA SERENDIPITY PLEASE LET ME HAVE PASSED. AMEN AND MAY THE 42 BE WITH YOU.
(Yeah, er, my mind hasn't really started making sense yet.)
"It was the rainbow gave thee birth, and left thee all her lovely hues."
[W. H. Davies]