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30 May 2011 @ 04:50 pm
I'm not a fan of those times that I think I'm finally getting over an illness ("Oh, is that what non-congested air feels like in my nose? Yaaay!") and something more painful comes up.

Last night I was at my brother's friends' place as they were gaming. I read a bit and online'd a bit, then dozed off on my book. I could feel my top lip and the skin between my nose and lips burning/sparking/acting up. Coldsores.

Now, lots of people just get one. A cold sore. No bug dwak (big deal), a little cream and all is good soon enough.

I turn into a mutant. I get them all over my top lip and the skin below my nose, sometimes lose parts of my bottom lip, too. I bubble up, go red and then look like a scaled mutant. It also makes expressions incredibly hard. Secondarily: Owwww. *Shakes fist.* Please stop paining my face.

I'm peeved that this happened while I am with Dweeb; he's so excited to show me around Keele and Newcastle - and I'm excited too! But it tends to be diminished by things like this.

I don't have my Viroxin, which I would normally use as soon as I felt the symptoms and the sores wouldn't fully grow. I'm not excited to use it on Wednesday evening. It kills enough at the start of the sores, but when they're grown and sensitive... Nope nope nope, not going to think about it, going to power through when I get there.

This is going to be a case study in gathering my self-esteem. I know I was lacking it before. I'm sure I can pull it together, dive in and find it... It's hard to look people in the eye when I feel like a mutant (even though I know logically that I'm not); I get the urge to run back to my leper colony or hermit hill. But I'm going to channel high school me who marched into school and explained to anyone who questioned. I'm going to look people in the eye.

And hopefully, since all my problems seem to have come up in the last two months or so, they should hopefully leave me alone come DiaCon and my journey home. (:

Thinking not floating
"Thinking is the greatest torture in the world for most people."
Current Mood: sadPained.
CaroRulescarorules on May 30th, 2011 05:17 pm (UTC)
Gosh, this sucks.. and sounds incredibly painful.. Can you get a hold of some meds for it right away?
Kiwi Crocus: Emotion || Walk it off.cranky__crocus on May 30th, 2011 05:44 pm (UTC)
Yes, it certainly isn't much fun! It's ouchie. I unfortunately can't get my hands on any meds since they're pretty rare (I order them into my doctor's back in my States-home) and they're back at my English home, which is about 3 hours away at the moment. I can just hope it'll be a quick bout and won't spread over more of my mouth! :X
lash_laruelash_larue on May 30th, 2011 06:50 pm (UTC)
That does seem unfair.

Oddly enough that virus is one that I do not have. I cannot say that I feel deprived. I can surely sympathize though, I had shingles on my head/face, which is a similarly leprous-feeling thing that hurts like hell.

Viruses - the true masters of the universe.

Best wishes for a speedy remission!


Kiwi Crocus: Zoë Lewis || Tea time!cranky__crocus on June 6th, 2011 06:32 am (UTC)
I think I've heard something like 40% of people actually get coldsores but something like 80% have the virus and never show symptoms. So if you don't get coldsores now, it's unlikely you'll start in the future. I'm just one of the unlucky ones who's had the virus since I was a kidling and always had coldsores with it, too. They just didn't start getting bad 'til I was a teen.

Viruses - the true masters of the universe.

And thank you! :D
gerristgerrist on May 30th, 2011 08:27 pm (UTC)
Non perscription in the UK
FYI - Cold sore treatments in the UK
"a cream containing the drug Cold sore treatments

" a cream containing the drug aciclovir (available from chemists without prescription) may help to lessen the duration and severity of the attack. I think its still called zovirax, but maybe they also have a generic with the good ingredient.

Maybe a trip to the local chemist is in order? I know you have plenty back in Reading, but if it isn't crazy expensive and it helps. Maybe they even sell the Viroxin over the counter there? I can't figure it out on line, but Boots might have it. XO Mom