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15 November 2009 @ 02:53 am
 
I got to 21,000 words today so I hit my initial 20k break. I didn't get any work done but I enjoyed some time with my friends.

Tomorrow and Monday are about working and writing.

Non-fiction is harder. There are so many memories and I like using details in my scenes. It's stream-or-consciousness, so it's easier to rack up words in that respect, but it's first-person present-tense (AKA writing as I was in that age) so I can't really add any present knowledge. Makes it difficult given I have the urge to add my current humour to the situations.

I wonder if I'll continue this past 50k or if I'll decide that my high school memories are better off in my head or in a list to jog them. Who knows. I think I'll feel a little better having some of them down in story form for me to read later in life. High school was an important time for me, more important than university in some respects. I grew into myself in the face of great adversity and made difficult choices for myself that went against the grain and what people expected. University, not so much - I am pretty much the person people expect, once they get to know me. I formed this person in high school.

I wrote a song today when I had too much floating around in my head. I don't generally think like this, but the moment got to me. The title is silly because I enjoy alliteration and strange titles. As usual I'll probably change the end. I really need to stop writing songs until I work out the chord progressions to the ones I've already written.

My clock is flashing at me,
Says it died the night before.
I should probably work now
But I never know for sure.

What if what I want is not right here?
What if who I am was yester-year?
What if where I am is just not right?
What if how I live's an uphill fight?

Can't ask my clock these questions
'cause its knowledge has blown.
I could ask my sister
But she probably has her own.

Adults I see keep challenging
If their situation's true.
How could I comprehend
When to me it's all brand new.

What if what I want is not right here?
What if who I am was yester-year?
What if where I am is just not right?
What if how I live's an uphill fight?

How do I know
How to go
If it's all new to me?
How do I say
How to play
If the fear is all I see?

I want to be
True to me
With no trouble to my loves.
I'd like to feel
All things real
With the fewest push-and-shoves.

It's four o'clock this evening,
I've just seen a friend today.
I could work to be productive
But we know I want to play.

I'll write a few more words down
And then try to love my work.
I've got so many questions
That my mind could go berserk.

I'll keep searching for serenity
In my mind and in my heart.
At least I've got my loved ones
Sending love when we're apart.

What if who I want is not right here?
What if what I am was yester-year?
What if how I am is just not right?
What if where I live's an uphill fight?
What if how I be is not really me?
 
 
 
gerristgerrist on November 15th, 2009 03:51 am (UTC)
Excellent song!! Great feel to it, good flow!!
Kiwi Crocus: GA's || Cristina Yang || Dance.cranky__crocus on November 16th, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks Mum! :)

http://www.ilike.com/artist/Kiwi+Littleoak

It's the "Flashing Face" one. :) Just a loose idea of how the song will so I don't forget the melody I have in my head. :D Dunno if I kept the flow in the melody of it, but we'll see!

Would you want to have some fun when I'm back for break and sing Mercedes Benz with me? :D