I woke up today and showered and made myself look nice. Felt down and panicky when I went to ecology field course, but eventually cheered up. We sorted through insects for hours. I cried when one of the larvae wasn't dead and we had to put it in the alcohol and it was still thrashing around, so intent on LIVING.
It was then nicknamed by Jojo "Alcoholic Nigel" because it wouldn't die. Somehow I eased into not thinking about it. I hate slug slime and the smell of dead insects with alcohol. I had some fun from time to time.
Like with Alex's really cool, huge beetle. An instructor walked by and said, "I like your beetle." So I repeated it all sexy-like with waggly eyebrows and then added in a different sexy voice, as if in response, "And I love your hymen...optera." Because I am dorky enough to joke about/make puns involving the orders of insects.
We made it through. It's not perfect, there are loads of mistakes and it could have been so much better with more time, but we made it through. The insects were sorted to order so now we can look at the raw data and analyse, bla bla.
Came back. Uke thing arrived from Uncle and I'm sending the extra key I forgot to leave back. Also the clear die (like dice) lip ring which Haley helped me get in.
Played uke a bit. Love that I can tune it now. Actually prefer D-tuning 'cause it's higher and fits the soprano voice. Jujubean was impressed with the improvement from last term. Juju told me Alisha is coming 'round tomorrow. I'm excited. We hung out in Juju's room with video games and I got to play an old-school Lion King Game. It was epic. Then down to the bar, where I worked and then beat up Matt for an American football. Upstairs for What Lies Beneath, which was hilarious because everyone kept jumping and screaming and I just think horror films are funny. I got some good work done. Tomorrow's business is reading through journal entries.
No panic attacks today. At this point that's all I look for. Days with no panic attacks. I'm sure counselling is full up. Will go for a drop-in appointment when I can.
Ecology tomorrow morning. Everyone, not just group B. Should be interesting.
Getting into my Hermione Bang story too. Figuring out how I want to do tenses and POVs with changing times and characters. Love the ideas that come with time-oriented stories.
It's night-night time!