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Kiwi Crocus
22 July 2012 @ 01:39 am
I’ll just write this in a Word document since Livejournal looks too intimidating at the moment. This is some of my brainspace, my past, my present, and my future. And some of the reasons I'm a bit down.

Some talk about getting home, travel, and vacation.Collapse )

Thoughts about my ten-year anniversary of being out.Collapse )

It’s also been pretty much a year since I met all these fandom friends in 3D and left England and went off to a blissful small-town New England camp to fall in love. Hectic times. I miss England and my friends dreadfully; they’re frequently on my mind. I need to push myself into getting good with Skype or other ways of keeping in touch. My mind still drifts back to Reading and my how much I loved that place, though, and there’s not much I can do about that; it’s another form of home-sickness, since I made it my home. I can’t just take that away.

Sad thoughts about jobs and how I’m not Wilhelmina Grubbly-Plank.Collapse )

On my self-esteem and sensitivity.Collapse )

Some lyrics that caught my ears as I wrote:

"I was twenty-one when I wrote this song
I'm twenty-two now but I won't be for long
Time hurries on"
Kiwi Crocus
22 July 2012 @ 02:15 am
Oh! That last post reminded me of how curious I am about all your coming out stories--which is not just for queer or gender-non-normative people!

My story.Collapse )

I don't know if you'd consider it too personal to answer (sexuality and the topic of 'coming out' can be for many people), but if you'd like to or would be willing to answer some questions/talk about this, I'd personally love it.

So when did you realise your sexuality (orientation) and/or gender identity (totally can be a multi-part answer)? How did you realise it? Did you feel any need, desire, or inclination to come 'out of the closet' with it? Have you? If so, how? (Also a multi-part question, since we're always coming out through life.) When? How did some of the events go?

(I would love these for anyone who considers zirself straight or mostly-straight, too!)

I would just...really love to know/talk about it. One of the things I'm always interested in. I guess possibly because, in my ideal world, everyone would have to come out--or not 'have', but it would be part of how life went. It wouldn't be assumed that everyone was Straight Until Proven Otherwise, but one would just live and grow and age until the days these realisations would occur and the person could decide what to do with them--with the knowledge that, quite possibly, there would be new realisations later in life because these things aren't always fixed for everyone.