May 25th, 2012

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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Is it strange to feel relieved and a bit pleased being sad after days of high-energy mostly-joy?

I wonder. It doesn't feel strange, though, so I suppose I'll let myself be the deciding factor here, at least for myself.

After three days of Ferry Beach with constant people and teenagers, then three days of house-sitting/looking after a teen, then a day in Providence (Best Exotic Marigold Hotel!) with plans for a trip to the Lizzie Borden Bed & Breakfast / Museum tomorrow, Rocky Horror at a roller derby event on Saturday, church on Sunday, a week of friends/figuring out a job helping a friend sell collectibles, and a youth lock-in next Saturday...

It's just nice to feel something else, feel a bit of a down emotion, let myself yield to it and just say "it's alright, I can just feel sad for this time; I don't mind getting less sleep, I'm just going to let myself be." Let some energy use me instead of using energy.

Most everything's wonderful and I'm excited and I have so much to tell you all, but for now I can't and it's a surprisingly non-angsty thing. I've felt so much more comfortable with myself these last few weeks; I wonder if that's why I'm more comfortable with my sadness, too. And for the moment the comfort and the sadness are both nice.

Eh, I never claimed to be anything but an odd duckling (kiwiling). (; I'll probably regret the lack of sleep in the morning, though--hopefully it won't turn me into a Lizzie Borden myself!