February 14th, 2012

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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So I've finally finished Buffy the Vampire Slayer and now understand all the pictures with the school bus. It's only been waiting since I was barely a teen. Feels odd but good.

Also finished reading Spirit Bound and am on to Last Sacrifice (of the Vampire Academy series by Richelle Mead). LS is dedicated to her old teachers--gutsy to me, since I don't think I'd ever have it in me to do the same, lest I thought the book was a page away from perfection! But it made me smile.

6.25am Valentine's Day (or Anna Howard Shaw Day or Singles' Awareness Day/SAD).

Since I'm dating myself, I think I'm going to go for a Completely Selfish Day. Usually, even when I'm doing something pleasant (procrastination-inspired or no), I have this nagging guilt telling me to do any limitless number of other things--sometimes even equally pleasant ones, but ones that constitute a task, and thus something that I wouldn't be thrilled to do in that moment. Today I'm going to try to eradicate or ignore that Guilt Sense as much as I possibly can.

So I guess I’ll sleep but with an alarm, because I do want to wake up and enjoy my freedom. No CD ripping. Go to the library to pick up Mastiff only if showering and leaving the house sounds like a thrilling idea, and not for the scant possibility that a librarian might judge me for the book sitting on the 'request' desk for more than one day; and only ask about volunteering possibilities if I feel like it, not to scratch it off a To Do List task. Continue cleaning only if the desire and energy for it (and discovering old belongings) returns. Inbox and reading flist if that's what I feel drawn to do; or computer completely off if that's the feeling I get instead...or maybe something in-between, since it doesn't have to be a day of extremes (only in this world does 'computer off' for a day count as an extreme). Ice cream if I want it. Enjoy re-charging on some introvert time after a week and weekend of people, volunteering, and being HKIC: Head Kiwi In Charge. Maybe a bubble bath with candles and music and (very carefully) a book...

A day of me, treating myself to the sort of compassion that is all too rare. I’m not single—I am one person, but I am one person very much taken with myself, in that I don’t feel lonely or even particularly alone: I am one person within a brilliant web of wonderful, beautiful people. I’m available, I’m quite content with that, and I’m going to show myself a nice, peaceful time anyway!

Mmm. No more Buffy. Guess some new visual will have to catch my eye. Perhaps it's time to start in on Xena again, finally make it from start to end... ;Þ

(Thank you all for the dazzling V-Day hearts! I hope to send personal thank-you messages as well, I just wanted to make sure I acknowledged my gratitude here, too. (: )

But happy 14th February, everyone, no matter how you celebrate it; of course all days should be celebrated, holidays of romance or not. :B