May 19th, 2011

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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Tomorrow is my last exam. I was having enough difficulty revising for it already, because it's my last and because I don't respect the module. Today made it worse - checked grades in Harborne.

1) We call it a "Wiki Drop" - the lecturer has loads of screen-shots directly from Wiki. Thank you, but we could have taught ourselves that as soon as we saw the module title.

2) No organisation.

3) Out-of-date extra reading only tenuously relevant to the subjects.

4) A test on "data analysis" skills? In final year? A "test you can't revise for"?

5) Posting our grades publicly with our names? With just a letter grade?

RAGE. Once upon a time, I had a chemistry and physics teacher who posted marks at the back of the room. She at least used student numbers. Yes, some people were able to figure out student numbers eventually, but some effort had to go into it.

Public posting of grades with names? Just up on a board in the plant building? At least most teachers use Blackboard nowadays - but no, nothing on Blackboard and the presentation forms/papers were not in the office, despite that they've clearly been marked. And posting letter grades (+ and - aren't really used here) with no numbers? So, with an A a person could have between a 70 and a 79... We normally use those to calculate how well we have to do on the exams to get a pass/B/A.

And a C. I got my first ever C during a term-time activity (non-exam). Last semester of my university experience. I love how when I finally think 'oh, I did alright on that!' I get marks back to tell me I haven't, try again next time. And, since all the names were up with the grades, I saw how other people did on the same test before I could look away. And they'll see how I did. (I know that's a little self-centred, but, honestly, I know people look at my mark. People have often asked me what I got as a gauge to know how well they did - like I'm a grade scale. I know my coursemates will look.)

No respect for this module. Mammalian Reproduction and Environmental Management were painful because I respected the teachers and modules immensely and knew I didn't fully grasp the material (or for MR, no real grasp at all). This...just...grr. Does not make me want to do well at all. Pushing myself to revise my notes is going to be a pain. Thank goodness it's over tomorrow at 11.10am at the latest - then I don't have to think about it again until results, and I can just make sure I remember how much I hated this stupid module!

RAGE. The end. [/cranky__crocus]

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"The one person who really knows me best says I'm like a cat - the kind of cat that you just can't pick up and throw into your lap. No, the kind that doesn't mind being held, only when it's her idea; the kind that feels what she decides to feel when she is good and ready to feel it."
[Ani DiFranco; Virtue]
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