February 24th, 2011

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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Hmm. Today.

Slept lots last night because of alcohol the day before. (I had my own Southern Comfort and coke for the first time, and earlier in the day Claire bought me a single then double gin with lemonade on campus.)

Cleaned my room up a bit - not to perfection as I'd like, but better.

Made it through my emails.

Skyped with my mother and tattooedsappho though I could not see them. I was told I looked like a "gay hermit," which I cannot say is entirely (or at all) incorrect.

Watched an amazing film and started the very beginning of another.

As for my birthday, I went to lecture - Alejandra (she was a chaperone for Spain) was the lecturer. It was nice seeing her, but she didn't understand my questions entirely. Walked Claire to her French seminar and goodness her teacher is stunning; she looked hardly older than us, as well. I don't know why it's so comfortable being in the Humanities building when I'm a scientist. Dragged my heels heading over to the counselling centre because it was hard, but sat down with the lady and basically just put myself down on the list. (I couldn't remember the date and asked, then when she told me went, "Ah, yeah, it's my birthday - I should probably remember the date." She seemed delighted that I would come on my birthday. I had to wonder how coming to the counselling centre on one's 21st birthday could be construed in any solidly positive way.) Computer lab and then hung out with Claire as she sang with another girl for choir. Sat in Animal & Microbial Sciences building lobby (and was distinctly uncomfortable in the building) with Jojo while supporting Claire through her meeting with Nick-the-supervisor. Then we headed over for Mojos and they bought me the previously mentioned gin-and-lemonade. My first remark: "It tastes like a tree! I feel as though I've licked a pine tree." They were delighted by this and the fact that I immediately took a second sip, and then experimented with blowing bubbles. Sometimes I'm not sure whether I'm turning six or a new age.

Claire dropped me at home and I had parcels! A beautiful cane from lash_larue and a collage/DVDs/card from ubiquitousmixie and a cane tip (which arrived in perfect time and makes the cane shorter so it fits me) and leotard. (I have grown so annoyed with bras that I am wearing leotards within the house, because they are a step down from bras and my minimising sports bra but a step up from wearing nothing - and thus are perfect!)

I also received fantastic and lovely online messages! Thank you, all of you, for your posts and your comments. You brightened my day to a hue far brighter than I expected. (:

Tomorrow (er, today) I've got a counselling meeting at 11.30, lecture at 2, Claire is kidnapping me so I can teach her referencing and how to sing Winter Song (Ingrid Michaelson & Sara Bareilles), work for Wildlife in the Farming Environment and dissertation work. Will get through it and will try my best!

You all are so wonderful. I can't even. Just. aslkdjfhgalsdfj. Works of art and beauty and love and intelligence, all of you.


Those who dwell among the beauties and mysteries of the earth are never alone or weary of life.
[Rachel Carson]
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