November 4th, 2010

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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I don't know what I'm doing with my life lately.

I spend a lot of it shuffling cards. No, not metaphorically: I literally shuffle cards. Sometimes I play a game in-between, but the focus is on the shuffling rather than the playing. I wonder if that doesn't have a bit of meaning itself. Metaphors come from the mundane too, don't they?

I'm afraid to sleep again.

But all of that's okay, because they're my normal coping method, and I am able to be merely frustrated with them. If another crops up and surprises me, well, I'll let myself be a little scared.

Maybe a lot scared.

But for now, I shuffle - and I was sure to remove the Jokers from the deck.