July 10th, 2009

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

[. Romance .]

I am now in a relationship with myself on Facebook. Kiwi St. and Keywii St. I am happy with that. It is an open relationship.

My grandparents came up today. It was lovely to have them around. I canoed with Grampa and chatted with Memere.

We had a campfire with s'mores. Craig came up and fun was had.

I don't know what it is about Maine that can make a girl feel lonely. The cabin and the lovely solitude, somehow it makes me wish I had someone special to share it with.

Today I imagined lips pressed softly against the crook of my neck and a gentle arm tucked around my waist as I sat watching the fire. It was a first. I hope that is not further proof that I am going insane.

I've been feeling the summer-time occasional loneliness since I was 14, since I understood that in my life I wouldn't mind that form of temporary companionship either. It's been half a decade. Sometimes it makes me grin, shake my head and laugh. Other times I frown. Many times I do both.

Today I'm just smiling. Sometimes it's maddening to know I have another wait ahead of me, but most of the time I'm just excited. For the seduction (both ways) and the snuggles and the campfires. I'm excited to see how it falls into play.

Today I pictured myself in an embrace, in a relationship, being comforted and held... I wasn't repulsed. I smiled confidently and knew it was attainable. It may not be much, but it's something.

It's only 3 a.m. and I'm considering sleep. Progress is sweet.
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    flirty Flirty.
Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

[. Icon Fail .]

I give up on trying to find the perfect Kiwish Arizona icon of Silly McPerk, heelys or something.

It's doughnut time, people.

I'm wanted at the beach. Which would mean swimming. And owwy ears.

Shakes fist. Drats you ouchy ears!
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    disappointed Disappointed.