May 8th, 2009

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

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I was supposed to get revision done today.

The fact that I didn't is a big failure.

I hit another down period. I hate them.

I hate that exam time/stress time means rollercoaster!life. What happened to balance?

I've started praying. Which is weird, because I'm not convinced I'm praying TO anything, or that it does anything, or even why I'm doing it. But it feels good to talk out loud before I go to sleep, I guess. Like writing a journal entry into the air.

I think I would go insane without my ukulele and my voice.

I really hope I don't fail any of my exams, yet the fear doesn't always motivate me to revise. [Please don't try to assure me I CAN'T fail any of my exams: this is English school, it is very, very possible--and they are worth loads. English school is all on the end-of-year exam love train.]

Some days I just want to stay in researching, writing songs, going for forest walks, singing and playing, writing and working for world peace/environmental activism/equality/liberty/rights/end to world hunger and the lot of it.

And by "some days" I pretty much mean "all."
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Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

Teh Kwii's Kweh

  • 16:15 My voice improves when I'm smiling. That makes me giggle a lot.
  • 16:59 @moebiuscascade How are you a passive aggressive bitch? D:
  • 16:59 Apparently loudtwitter didn't listen to me and add the lj-codes to my entries. Betch! Shakes fist at livejournal things.
  • 19:22 Very peculiar that one of the made Awkward Flags of my life revolves around an old teacher. WTF, life, wtf. Stop being weird.
  • 19:34 I have a never-ending battle to the death with E chord. It's winning. As is the battle against exams. Es: 2, K: 0. Life!sigh.
  • 19:44 Oh. Cav is my nonsexual!Maude; these days are my dragging her to hospital. Haven't let go. She's not dead, but I'm not respecting. Harold...
  • 20:00 I really like my songs. That feels narcisstic to me, somehow, to like my voice however untrained it is. I enjoy my songs a lot.
  • 22:08 I probably should have saved Grey's, but I've still got the stuff I missed tonight for tomorrow. I'm going to make myself get sleep somehow.
  • 07:00 I'm awake now. Feeling a little refreshed. Have two hours for getting ready/whatever before genetics revision sesh and then more revisin'.
  • 13:06 I declare it tea time. My revision rate stinks. Need to get that up and better.
  • 14:38 After more tears and being caught by Lauren, I've put Cat Stevens back on and am revising silkmoths, trying not to be overwhelmed.
And that's a wrap, folks! Kupokweh!