November 18th, 2008

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

Chilterns and Crying

I feel like I'm dying.

I feel sick and panicked and just...dying.

I got a 55 on my Chilterns assessment. And one of the comments was that he wanted it in report form, with different headings and sections.

Even though I emailed with a link to THAT FORM and asked, point blank, "IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT?!" and I got a resounding "Noooo, we want an ESSAY!"

Well congratulations, I gave you a frakking essay! Only apparently that's not what you wanted! And sorry that I didn't state my objectives at the front of the report, because you didn't help me clarify what the frak our objectives were supposed to be! And sorry there was some repetition of material between pages, given that the point of an essay is suppose to introduce, inform, summarize and conclude. And sorry for the 'too much jargon' with my sentence that you rephrased in almost exactly the same way, the same length and with little more clarification! I understand the references and evidence of background reading was a little weak given I only used the Blackboard websites you gave and the lecture notes and lecture talk, so I'll forgive you for that one.

But yeah, cheers! Thanks for giving CJ-the-waffler-who-wrote-800-words-a-few-hours-before-the-deadline a 61! And giving Jack-who-worked-as-hard-as-me a 54! And Naomi-who-worked-less-hard-than-us-and-doesn't-undertsand a 71!

We just love ya!

I'm sending an email to go over, in detail, ever comment and every single thing I can do to write a proper paper. And I'm going to do it calmly and politely, because that's what I do.

Then I'm going to go back to crying, put on some nice loud music, do up my chemistry notes, copy down my exploiters notes, and start gathering information for this new frakking assessment due Friday. Because obviously the best thing for me to do when I don't understand the grade I got on the last one is to start the next one that's supposed to be the same.

For the record, everything this week has already miraculously gone wrong. Frak this week. So hardcore.
Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.


I'm doing alright now! I sent off a sweet email.

I told myself before starting university that I would try my best, and I would have compassion for myself whenever my best didn't necessarily meet my standards.

I tried really hard. I did all I could. I passed, even if it wasn't with flying colours.

I mean, c'mon. I'm achieving my dreams, I've got an amazing brother who will scandalously talk to me during school (Mum you SO do not know this! Promise!) and is wicked fun, and amazing music to cheer me up.

I'm a smart girl. I can sing, write, dance, draw, talk my way out of a lion's jaws, and a whole lot of other stuff.

It's just a grade! Frak it! I'm not a grade, I'm Kiwi!
Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

Teh Kwii's Kweh

  • 16:34 Doing the Macarena and walking up and down the corridor counts as doing chemistry, right? ...right? What about crunches? Meditating? Eek
  • 08:46 I need to go look at my Chilterns' assessment now that I have it. I feel sick. I'm frightened. I can't put this off anymore!
  • 09:57 I feel better about the 55 having sent an email to the professor and having ranted. I think I'm going to wash off the rest with a shower.
  • 16:04 Livejournal died for a while and I thought I was ded tuu. Nao! I haz extension on paper fer whole class, 'cause I askeded! <3. Ki ...
And that's a wrap, folks! Kupokweh!