April 29th, 2008

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.


Good gods I feel pathetic.

I told Carolyn I would play a duet with Sarah this week, and that was weeks ago.

I asked Sarah around a week or two after that if she would mind playing alone since that was what she had originally signed on for.

She said yes, as long as I was there to cheer her on.

It apparently slipped my mind to tell CAROLYN that.

She emailed to check in. I sent her a shameful email in reply.

Good green I just...Augh. I can't do this! I can't play flute on stage. The idea of it makes me cry. I can if I really push myself, but the idea of doing a duet with a skilled player...

And I even lost the book of music she loaned me. I thought it would turn up but it didn't.

So I guess I'll have to buy her a new one.

I think I'm going to throw up.

Augh, now I'm really going.