November 23rd, 2006

Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

I think this is the truest one I've come across.

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning

You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.
You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights.
A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way.

In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit.

While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.
You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.
Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What do you think?
Rainbow || Rainbow northern lights.

Turkey Day.

I made it through.

It was SO ANNOYING for the first hour at least. Rebecca, the little fourth grader, kept taking my hat and cane without asking.

A hat is one thing.

But taking someone's cane and laughing as she hobbles around and is too scared spineless to ask for it back?

It's sad to see me around kids. Really, really sad. Because I'm THAT scared that I don't know what to do. I always think that if I even begin to ask for something back I'll just start yelling, or something.

I don't even know, it's just scary. There are some kids I can be with. The majority I can't. Especailly the spoiled ones, like Rebecca.

Kassandra was fun to be with. She's a junior too.

Memere was proud of me for getting into the NHS and told everyone else, but she was very disinterested with my FFA Career Development Event, which was my ACTUAL passion. That just about broke my heart. Same with the majority of the people there.

Then Guy came with Wendy. Spending time with Wendy was fantastic. And SHE cared, because she was IN the FFA when she was in school. So that was a Godssend.

I changed into my medieval dress for her since she said she loved the time. That got Grammie involved with things majorly, which was important since it was her first time coming and her first time being in the same room with my grandfather for long periods of time. She's going to make a dress for Wendy. =). No one understood why I changed clothing, but that's okay, I guess. They don't really understand me.

They call me Nicole. I doubt anyone noticed that I flinched every. single. time. Kassandra and Rebecca called me Kiwi--for that I thank them more than I can imagine. I forgot how much I hate being called that name so often. And everything is just so....fake? I don't know. I can see these people kissy-kissying one minute and then talking behind backs the next.

It's RIDICULOUS. Augh. I don't like Turkey Day. At least we didn't have a religious blessing. Da wouldn't have put up with it. As Guy put it, "You're talking to a bunch of Jews, UUs, and athiests. Would you please shut up?"

Unk came, which shocked us all. When everyone left we watched a horrible movie. The worst movie I have seen in my life. An action one. I don't even remember the name.

Now it's time for bed. I don't want to think about parts of the day any more because it just plain disgusts me.

Spending time with Wendy was FANTASTIC, though. So that makes up for everything.

I want to call Hitomi above all but I don't know if she'd be awake. So I'm going to go find the warmth of my bed now.