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Kiwi Crocus
01 January 2006 @ 10:22 pm
My New Year's Eve went really, really well. Snoopy slept over and I hogged the computer while she scarfed up the book I got her for her birthday (which I borrowed. Haha). We missed midnight and when Snoopy told me to check the clock it was 1:19. Hahaha. Being an hour late to look at the clock New Year's Eve really says something. (No, not only that I'm a [insert last name here]. Shuuuddup.)) I threw a spoon at her the minute we realized we had passed the midnight-checkpoint. So wheeeee.

Today was nice. Snoopy went home and I went online for quite a long time. Made a banner for Open Oak Boarding School. I'll probably make a few more until I'm at least slightly pleased, since it's a contest and all. I don't really want the 1k (if I got it I'd just give it right back to Polaris), but it'd be nice to win. It'd boost my self-confidence on my banner-making. Actually, that's horse dung. I could boost my self-confidence on it if I wanted to. Hmm...mayhap I will.

Tomorrow is another down day, but I'll spend the whole time LOOKING FOREWORD TO SCHOOL!!!! Only one more day to get throuuuugh!!! Then I get to: go back to classes, go back to challenging teachers, see my friends and give Kleppy and Makuchan their gifts, be with the people I've missed, have homework and assignments, and get to think about academic things more~! Yayayayayay!! -Flaps arms.-

♥ school!!!
Current Mood: excitedExcited!
Current Music: Jupiter Sunrise -- Super X-Ray Vision (Yay JupeSun).
Kiwi Crocus
01 January 2006 @ 11:51 pm
This book had a bit of dialogue that really expresses a feeling I've had pulling at small parts of my brain lately. I tried to explain it to Snoopy yesterday and I failed. Here it is from Venus Envy by Rita Mae Brown.

Ru spoke kindly. "And, darlin', some people will never get past it once the word's out that you're gay. You will be reduced to an object. It's not fair but that's the way it is. If you wear a purple skirt people will say it's because you're a lesbian. You own an art gallery. They'll say that gay people are always artistic. You have a dog and a cat and live alone. Lesbians always have cats, don't they? You'll be shorn of your individuality. But to those people who are full people themselves you'll be what you are and what you choose to share."

I'm glad I've found it in words. That's how I've been feeling (not much, definitely not to any extreme) lately. With the whole, if I have a problem many people say it's just a lesbian problem. But that's it--it ISN'T a lesbian problem. I can assure anyone that all lesbians all over the world are not having the exact problems that I am. I'm not having the exact problems each one of them, as individual people, are. Some may be similar, but the same? Capable of being grouped together as a "lesbian problem"? Not 1% of the time.

So when I have a problem, idea, creative streak, or object, it really annoys me when someone groups it as being part of the lesbian community. In jest? Fine--I'll laugh along. But not literally. It's my problem, a "Kiwi" problem, if you must. Most of the people I know are absolutely fabulous about this. If I draw a strange picture it isn't a, "lesbian thing to do" it's just something that I would do.

It doesn't often happen with majorities. Actually, that isn't quite true. Majorites are dissected. As far as high school goes, into stereotypes. If someone who happens to share similarities with the "gothic" group or even calls him or herself "gothic" the same individuality is lost.

Sorry about all the venting. Sometimes I wish more people would just see a person for a person, rather than what traits they share with what groups and what to group their actions, speech, and ideas as. I try to see each person for who they are and what they share as much as possible. I think I'm succeeding.

I feel better now. :P.
Current Mood: relievedRelieved.
Current Music: Deep Love || Mandalay.