Kiwi Crocus (cranky__crocus) wrote,
Kiwi Crocus


I did not mean to be up right now. I was going to be a good girl, who has gone through everything in her room but her closet and desktop and a few surfaces.

But I cannot find my letter box. My heart is crying. I know what box I used! It was the last project I had in ornamental woodworking class senior year, I spent forever on it, it fit well, and I put the velvet blue cloth on the inside only on the bottom. The other thing I had made didn't fit my letters--and that's still sitting around!

I remember placing all my letters in there. And then jamming them. It is so filled with letters! I would NEVER put it in any Give Away pile. Where the FRAK is my LETTER BOX?

I'm too panicked to cry right now. So much of my history is in there. I don't even want to think about it.

I have this small recollection that my mother had the box somewhere. I don't know where that is on the time line in my mind. I remember that I always had it placed on the back of my trunk, toward the wall and next to the lamp. Then I had some tissues there and I guess I thought the letter box was inside the trunk.

I cleaned out the trunk to replace it with my tie-dye one, no letter box. I have cleaned any place in my room I could see it being. Nothing. Checked quickly through the kitchen and the playroom. Didn't see anything.

Good god, I'll give up the box, but I need those letters!

Fate, be a kind mistress please--bring them back to me! I will miss them with all my heart. So many of my memories are in that box, and not in my brain!

I want to cry again. And now I can't. What is with this! I can't sleep either, I'm so nervous, if I don't find these letters...

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