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Kiwi S.

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TV Shows [22 Feb 2030|10:32pm]
[ mood | Amused. ]
[ music | Sunny Came Home - Shawn Colvin ]

On Air or Currently Watching:

The Big Bang Theory: S03E06
Dollhouse: S02E05
Grey's Anatomy: Caught up.
Private Practice: Caught up.
Glee: S01E12
Trinity: Caught up.
30 Rock: Season 4.
Scrubs: Season 5.
Better Off Ted: Season 2.

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[. Books .] [01 Jan 2011|12:00am]
[ mood | Inspired. ]
[ music | Monty Python's stuff. ]

Book List


1) The Tomato Soup Chronicles by Zephyr Goza. *****
2) Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within by Natalie Goldberg. *****


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[10 Feb 2010|12:23am]
[ mood | Exhausted. ]

Ack I so wanted to make a good post today but it's frigid in my room and my fingers won't move and it's late and I'm exhausted and I need to wake up tomorrow morning.

Today was so full. I didn't get back until 10 p.m. Same as yesterday pretty much. I hope I can update soon. These days have been insane.

I'm going to read and go to sleep tomorrow.

Tomorrow I have lecture at 9, practical with the chicks again, Meditation society at 2, Vagina Monologues at 4, possible audition for a part in the Writers' Originals after that. Not that I've ever actually done acting before. I'll see what Libby says. If it's just doing a reading...then I guess I'll go for it? It's nothing official since it's not the actual drama society anyway...

Augh exhausted and freezing. I need a snuggle buddy.

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [09 Feb 2010|10:02pm]
[ mood | Groggy. ]

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[09 Feb 2010|01:00pm]
[ mood | Annoyed. ]

I woke up and thought, "Some day I'm going to learn how to put myself to sleep at an appropriate time when for when I need to wake up."

I then realised I really haven't had this skill since before junior high, when I used to stay up watching Animal Planet until the infomercials or whatever were on.

Huh. Someday it's gotta happen. Someday. 20-30 minutes 'til I need to leave for lecture. Why yes, I am in bed in my jimjams. I'll get up, I always do... Probably wear my rainbow legwarmers for Jo since I'm walking in (left Squeaky on campus yesterday).

Lecture 2-4. Nap possibly on campus. V-monologues 5-some time. Home. Email supervisor. Sleep. That is the plan, but will I stick to it?

(Reminds me of Mr. Dufault's favourite word. Sticktoitiveness.)

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[09 Feb 2010|03:45am]
[ mood | Distracted. ]

I have just discovered that the amount of work you can get done with Jennifer Beals is moaning on your computer screen is...minimal.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZHQ28IEveA&feature=related

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [08 Feb 2010|10:02pm]
[ mood | Cold. ]

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[08 Feb 2010|01:54am]
[ mood | Relieved. ]

I always get a lot done Sunday nights.

I would like to pretend this is just a habit from high school...from doing all my homework Sunday night and staying up too late doing it.

Really I'm just a weekend procrastinator. I set how much I'd like to do for the weekend in my mind, and then it's Sunday night and I start doing it all.

So now that enough of it is done I'm crashing! Awake in six hours for a lecture, practical, some work on campus, a V-Monologues reading practise and home. Thank goodness for naps and 2 p.m. lectures the next day. :)

Also, the mood theme picture for this mood is ridiculously beautiful. I need to stop looking at it and go to sleep.

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [07 Feb 2010|10:01pm]
[ mood | Exanimate. ]

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[07 Feb 2010|03:08pm]
[ mood | Calm. ]

Career Counseling - a Harry Potter rec.

Gen stories. The Heads of House speaking with six different students. The story delighted me! I read Luna's and concluded, "Oh, that's why Mrs. Maddison gave me funny looks." Then I read Hermione's and thought, "And that explain the looks from everyone else."

Ah well! Back to my lovely Internet time, then 'breakfast' at 4 p.m., onto some work and writing. :)

Due date on Friday. 15 sources out of 20-30. No freak out yet. Huzzah! Probably isn't a great reference list/bibliography, but at this point, I have chosen not be neurotic. Especially since it seems a bit ridiculous that they're teaching us to find references/write a bibliography in the SECOND TERM of our SECOND YEAR when we have been writing scientific essays/reports since at least first term of first year, if not in high school (as I did).

It's science communication. I think I'll live. Once more, my level of care is directly correlated with my level of respect for the course.

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[07 Feb 2010|04:30am]
[ mood | Enthralled. ]

My joy today is difficult to contain.

I went out with friends. We dined, dolled up, drank and discussed diverse doctrines. I was a rainbow. We played games and danced.

I'm home. Bambi is crashing on the couch.

I worked out chords my favourite self-written song, Right Through Time. It was faster than I thought. It's for FAWM. FAWM is good for me.

Right Through Time.

I would like to be well soon so I can start actually singing/recording these songs.

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [06 Feb 2010|10:01pm]
[ mood | Content. ]

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[06 Feb 2010|05:57am]
[ mood | Shocked. ]

The third chapter to Transfiguration over Tea is up here. My goodness, have I been putting it up for three weeks already? Time flies too quickly!

As I'm sure Minerva would agree in this chapter. A bit of fun family fluff.

Now, it is nearly 6 a.m. and I think I shall try to catch some sleep now! Tinboy's party tomorrow night. I want to be well for it.

Three songs up on FAWM today, as well. Those are here. All highly silly songs.

Goodnight!

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [05 Feb 2010|10:01pm]
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[04 Feb 2010|11:47pm]
[ mood | Surprised. ]

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [04 Feb 2010|10:02pm]
[ mood | Apathetic. ]

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[04 Feb 2010|09:09pm]
[ mood | Nostalgic. ]

I finished my list for Sarah. 15 things starting with "I miss..." regarding her/us, ending with "I miss...you."

In doing so, I came across many quotes from last year and two or three from the beginning of this year. If you would like to delve into the craziness and insanity that was my Fresher year, feel free! Many conversations end up sexual. We're Uni students. We can't really help it.

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[04 Feb 2010|04:02am]
[ mood | Bored. ]

Oh! I kept wondering why 4 February felt so important. I knew there was something my mind was trying to remember.

It's Mrs. Osborne's birthday! My old English teacher. 8th grade. Holy crow, six years ago. I still remember her fondly. I love English and literature. I miss it.

Too early to send something (it isn't even her birthday in that time zone) so I'll have to send something later today. I'll send something through Sonja, too, since she works at the school and I can't always get to Mrs. O through email.

It dawned on me that my mother and I are in similar spots. Transitioning. Her with her post-Momness and me with my post-studentness. I mean, we're both in the ends of those phases right now and looking at what we're going to do next.

I love ecology. I love sitting in lectures, learning about ecology. Hearing things. Researching things. I hate running experiments, writing academic writing, writing reports, doing busy work, taking tests, taking exams. I love revising.

There's a lot I don't like about Uni. I'm still glad to be here, of course, and to be living my dream - being in England, having these friends, creating my own communities, growing into myself, learning about things I love. I know I need to get a degree and I'm sure I'll be relieved when I have it. The word 'dissertation' and the phrase 'next year' can throw me into a panicked tizzy, but I'm sure I'll get through them because I always do.

I'm still waiting for the what-comes-after. Living poor off spaghetti-ohs and dreams. Groaning about student payments. Missing random college moments and being nostalgic, then kicking myself in the gut and snapping 'yeah, but do you remember THIS?' Listening to Avenue Q and singing along to "How Do I Go Back to College" with great empathy. Charity shop clothing. Too many beans and too much bread. Travel. Sitting in coffee shops with enough money to buy one cup of coffee and making it last hours just to sit writing.

I think what I really need to do is start writing again, to get me through all this. Pick up Writing Down the Bones more often. I apologise for the two long updates back-to-back. Wasn't intended. Guess with my voice not working in real life, my fingers are prepared to make up for the silence.

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[04 Feb 2010|03:34am]
[ mood | Uninspired. ]

Monday: too ill for lecture.
Tuesday: woke up feeling terrible. Called Pip. Everyone agreed the lecture would be ridiculous (by Gillian on Writing Science Reports). It was apparently ridiculous.
Wednesday: suffered through lecture feeling terrible. Went to practical and watched a freezing starving chick. Finally got to warm them and give them food. Went into computer lab and 'did stats' with my partners. We didn't really have a clue what was going on, the lecturer didn't really know what to say, oh great fun.

Bank. I spent two (or three?) weeks locked out of my account just to receive my old pin number (which I already knew), go outside, get in and change my pin number. Seriously?! Could you REALLY not have just reset the darn card weeks ago when I came in?

Buddhist Meditation Society (apologies, it is not Medical Society!). Was ready to take a nap in the hour-break I had before it. Girl was lost waiting. We chatted. She was waiting for a meeting to audition people to read in The Vagina Monologues. I told her that was epic. She told me to join. I said sure. I am now reading one of the sections in the production for the Women Week. This is super shiny. I got to read one of the pieces and it was fantastic.

Actual meditation society I gave Kelsang Loten the Chopstick Buddy to give to Christina. Loten was amused. I couldn't meditate well and felt yucky, but had a reasonable time. Was nice seeing Clarance and Samatha and Chris and Loten. Biked home, crashed for three hours in bed.

Thursday: Got an email that I'm supposed to have a meeting tomorrow some time between 10 and 11. There's just no way. I am so sore and icky and gross that another morning thing when I don't need it just won't work. I fixed up my draft bibliography a bit and sent in in an email to my supervisor. They're group meetings, anyway, and generally he just speaks with the other people because I seem to know what I'm doing. (Haha yeah right whatever.) I think an email-based 'meeting' will work just as well, but if not we can meet next week before I give in the bibliography.

Hopefully I will make it to my 2 p.m. Entomology lecture. It's hard enough to pay attention when I'm well. Last week Jo drew a dragonfly through the entire lecture. I fell asleep in the first half and I don't know what was going on the second half - the lecturer didn't seem to know either. The practical we just sat IDing bugs with keys.

Tomorrow I have my meeting with Sarah and Harry in the late evening, see if we can salvage my relationship with Sarah. I'm going to finish my list of 'I miss...' things tomorrow. We'll see how it goes.

Beyond: At least I don't have anything Friday. Hopefully I can sit down Friday feeling somewhat human to a) finalise my bibliography a bit more for the 12th b) work on the bird banding brochure c) start thinking about the lay writeup d) consider working on the end-of-term science communication essay e) whatever misc. stuff.

Ack. I'm ready to go back to feeling human. And motivated/inspired. All of this is very draining and lately I've felt it lacks purpose. No fun.

Kris (starsister) and I seem to be just counting down the days until college/Uni is over. This is not a good outlook! It needs changing!

I'm thankfully beginning to feel tired again so I'm going to head to sleep and get another 8 hours. Hopefully I'll feel loads better for tomorrow.

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Teh Kwii's Kweh [03 Feb 2010|10:02pm]
[ mood | Sore. ]

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